The Long Road

He sat alone on his bed, he liked a specific corner of the bed. It was a corner in which he could hide from everyone and everything. That corner comforted him, felt protected. Sudden thoughts made his heart sink, his eyes were constantly moist but he had a little smile on his face.

Ravi was in love with a girl, Ruhaani but their pair wasn't made in heaven. They were never meant to be together but they still hung on, clinging to each other, loving each other.

He kept thinking what went wrong. They were together so many years why hadnt she thought about her priorities before, he felt lonely and betrayed. Life had cease to mean anything but he knew he had to drag on, he did not have the option to give up living. He did not have an option to give up surviving.

He pushed himself farther in the corner, sat with his notebook. He looked morose, he kept doodling circles aimlessly. His eyes were leaking and he looked as someone who had lost all hope.

In his mind a myriad of thoughts came and went, the immense feeling of loss made him remember each second spent with her. HE kept saying to himself "Now she has forgotten me, Um sure she has. Hope she is happy" and he kept staring.

He remembered small things, minute details, as how she ate a brunch on sunday instead of eating breakfast. How her family lunches were so very late on sundays. The memories of day to day routine stuff seemed to keep him alive, these mundane activities were the only things he could hold on too. He was trying hard to recollect each and every second spent with her.

The feeling of being lost was greater than the sense of loss. He had always been with her since childhood and suddenly losing her made him vulnerable.

It was not as if Ruhaani was happy in doing what she did, she had to do what she did. It was not forced upon her but because she was a selfless person, a sort of person who would sacrifice her happiness to see the people around her happy.She sat in a well lit room, the walls had beautiful flowers painted all across it, the sun
was pouring in through the balcony. It was a beautiful glass wall through which the sun's rays filtered and seeped in. For years she had admired the beauty of this sun but not today. It seemed corrupted and dark and weak.

She knew that after years of holding hands and contemplating there future together they were over, Finally. The imminence of the whole thing shook her, she fought the urge to cry but it was the only way she could do to find some solace. She was not a weak person who spilled tears but these tears were for someone who will always live on in her life. Someone whom she knew will never give up on her, someone who would love her unconditionally even if he was hurting from inside.

They both huddled in their corners and the day shifted to night and then again....

They both woke up with moist eyes and nightmares.

They got dressed for work, wiped their eyes dry and left for work. The first thing she would do is to call him when she left, but she did not.

He kept waiting that maybe she will call.The call never came.....